Is it normal to be contemplating changing your gender?

Male here. For a long time now I was catching myself thinking or rather daydreaming about being a girl, but it was always kinda hypothetical. But I was changing my style rapidly in the past few months and now the uncertainty of my feelings bugs me, doesn't let me think of anything else. I just don't feel like I can be happy staying a guy. I have a pretty clear picture of what I want myself to be, to look like, to behave, but I can't put away the stuff I have now. I'm attractive, a bit feminine-looking (but not in a weird way), I have a nice singing voice and I'm scared of losing it if I'm decided to shape myself in a completely different fashion. I'm not sure if I can even achieve the looks of a normal female without heavy surgery. I'm 5'11", have pretty large hands and feet for a typical female and all that... I'm not gay and absolutely do not want any half measures for myself – it's either a good-looking guy or a cute girl, nothing in between. And though I'm afraid of losing what I have now and I can't really be complaining about anything regarding my appearance, I still feel like I'm not entirely myself in this body. Wearing skirts and cute pajamas, going out in all pink, talking in a high-pitched voice, applying make-up, being a real 20 y.o. girl – that's what I want the most right now. Is it normal? Can it be a part of my depression process or BPD? How should I handle this? It's driving me nuts!

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  • Rocknrolla81

    Do what makes you happy! Your happiness comes first.

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    • 1WeirdGuy

      if heroin makes me happy should I continue doing it?

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      • harkosv

        What exactly makes gender dysmorphia as dangerous as heroin?

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    • Kikosawa

      Thank you a lot! I don't really know if I'll be able to be happy with either of those choices. But first of all I'd like to understand if it's even normal. Well, of course it isn't normal, but is it at least healthy? Maybe I'm going bananas and can't even realize that myself

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      • Rocknrolla81

        No problem! And do what makes you happy. Your happiness comes first

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  • Vvaas

    i'm gonna be honest with you, if you've already gone through puberty then yes it will be a bit of a struggle trying to present as a woman without surgery. do you actually feel the urge to live your life as a woman, or is it more you just want to be more feminine or enjoy doing more feminine things? because you can still be a man and do feminine things like wear dresses, make-up, etc. it's not illegal.

    i'd say wait a few months and if your feelings are still there or have grown stronger you should seek out a psychologist to talk about those feelings and the emotions you feel about yourself and your body.

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    • Kikosawa

      Yes, all I want is to be a woman, no middle ground. I'm 20, so surgery is probable necessary... But yeah, I should think about it some more, thank you

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  • Whatintarnation

    No judgment here but my sister works in endo with a lot of people that have transitioned. She said a lot of them become suicidal after they transition because they thought that would make them happy but it did not. I would strongly recommend speaking to a professional about this and getting their opinion before you do anything drastic. Just my two cents. Good luck with whatever you decide though.

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  • raisinbran

    Transition to a full man.

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    • allialli

      Transition to your grave, raisin brain.

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      • LloydAsher

        You'll do that too

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    • Kikosawa

      Lol, that wasn't bad, I'll think about it

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  • bigbudchonger

    I would be really careful about this, dude. Most MtF transition very badly tbh. If you're lucky then the least you would need is shit loads of surgery.

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    • Kikosawa

      That's what's making it so hard. I contemplate the choice, though I don't even know if it's possible to make it work even if I decide to. Shit, it's hard man.

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      • LloydAsher

        Just wait on it. You dont need to transition to be feminine.

        Plus the people I've met who have transitioned it really doesnt change much of anything you can still tell.

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  • hauntedbysandwiches

    You can't change your gender..it's in your DNA and organs.

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    • Kikosawa

      But I can change my appearance.

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      • LloydAsher

        Not well might I add. Those who look feminine already have a better chance to look feminine after transition. If you got male features its gonna be hard as hell to change them.

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        • hauntedbysandwiches

          Exactly

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    • idk2233

      no, sex is. gender is made up.

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      • hauntedbysandwiches

        Gender and sex are the same thing. This new 'woke' stuff is harmful. But regardless of what you believe in that, you can't change your sex.

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  • Tinybird

    wearing skirts and pink and talking in a high-pitched voice and wearing makeup =/= being a girl.

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    • Kikosawa

      I know. But you didn't understand what I was saying. I don't want to be a feminine man, it feels wrong to me. It's not my opinion, it's my gut.

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  • Somenormie

    If you want to then that's your choice.

    But we won't force you.

    Do whatever makes you feel happy.

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  • 1WeirdGuy

    Not trying to be a downer but you wont fool anyone. You'll look like a man in a dress. You wont pass. People will point at you and laugh at you. Im just being honest and telling you what you need to hear. You arent gonna look anything like woman so keep that in mind. If you want to live life as a woman just get it out of your head that you're gonna pass and ppl will actually think youre a woman. You started too late. Life isnt fair and ppl are mean. Is it worth going through all that just to look like a dude in a dress? Idk

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  • olderdude-xx

    Its somewhat common for some people to feel and question things the way you do.

    The few people I know of who went though gender reassignment surgery and counseling were very far more solid in what they were thinking and mentally experiencing that what you seem to be describing.

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    • LloydAsher

      Then theres the 70% of young people who want to transition back.

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  • Deborahs_knickers_off

    Who wants to throw d**k in my jaw whilst I'm wearing pink lingerie?

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  • CD4life

    I am a lifelong CD, first off since you say you have no interest in boys, then you are merely exploring other ways of enjoying your sexual self. When you see in the mirror conflicts with what you are feeling. Enjoy the CDing but stay as you are. I will say this if there had been internet when I was growing up I would have changed my life completely.

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  • harkosv

    I think this is your biggest problem: "it's either a good-looking guy or a cute girl, nothing in between"

    You're free to transition, but you're not free to determine how well you pass as the gender you transitioned into. There's no guarantee you'll be a cute girl, and at the risk of sounding like a huge asshole, the majority of MTF transgender people I've met do not make attractive women

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  • Tommythecaty

    psychological contagion.

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  • chrysocolla

    You have AGP

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  • kelili

    It's normal considering the amount of trans cult being publicised and normalised. The extreme stuff like being offended because Adele called herself a female and cancelling J K Rowling. So, if you are on social media it is normal to be all questioning.
    You'll never be a woman no matter how much surgery. You can certainly adopt gender-stereotypes but you'll always be a man.

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  • kelili

    It's normal considering the amount of trans cult being publicised and normalised. The extreme stuff like being offended because Adele called herself a female and cancelling J K Rowling. So, if you are on social media it is normal to be all questioning.
    You'll never be a woman no matter how much surgery. You can certainly adopt gender-stereotypes but you'll always be a man.

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  • idk2233

    i would talk to a professional before making any permanent changes. however, presenting more feminine and doing what makes u happy is no harm! if it's just a phase then it's just a phase, but i do urge for you to talk to someone simply so you can understand yourself better and make more informed decisions if you decide to transition. :)

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  • BleedingPain

    You do you, but dont transition unless you truly feel that is who you are meant to be.

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  • Iambillythemenacetosociety

    If it makes you feel better, do it.

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    • LloydAsher

      Theres a line where "do it if it makes you happy"

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      • Iambillythemenacetosociety

        In cases like these, no there isn't.

        If the OP wants to transition, cool. They should do what they want.

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        • harkosv

          You don't think permanently and irreversibly changing your biology should be considered a line to cross cautiously?

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          • Iambillythemenacetosociety

            Of course it's a line that should be crossed cautiously.

            As long as the OP knows what they're getting themselves in to, they are free to do whatever makes them happy.

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