Is it normal to always think bad of myself and how i look?

I say this a lot but, I say it because i feel it needs to be said.. you need a positive attitude and a positive outlet in your life from the sounds of it. Read motivational and positive quotes in the mornings, meditate in the evenings, really notice your thoughts throughout the day. Everytime you notice a negative thought, catch it and replace it with a positive one. You will be amazed at what you can accomplish by doing so

Here's a trick that helped me boost my self esteem back when it was severely damaged. Look in the mirror everyday and give yourself a compliment. Eventually, you'll believe everything you hear and thus your self esteem will rise. Also, this trick is sort of detrimental to the advice I just gave you but it works for me, when talking to people pretend that you are attractive. Imagine the most attractive person in the world and then imagine yourself being that person. Ignore what people say, the only opinion that matters when it concerns your looks is your own.

You need to meditate

If it's your personality you don't like, fix it.

you're in a tough place, friend. I sincerely wish you the best.

Thanks guys i will take everything onboard.

Completely normal, I'm engaged & also feel like that even tho my misses tells me I'm fine & I just know she's lieing to me :(