Is it normal that i want to kill someone anytime i fail at something?
As long as everything goes in the way it should, everything is fine. But as soon as I fail at anything no matter how small it is, I feel extremely upset and it takes me weeks to recover from it. During this time I constantly think about killing either myself or finding someone else who was somehow responsible for this failure and kill them. I'm also easily offended. If someone tells me something that I don't like, I would probably hate them forever even if they are my closest friends or family. I've cut my relationship with lots of these so called friends just because they said me something bad or triggered me. Generally I have a very low level of tolerance and I'm oversensitive to lots of stuff that you may find unimportant. I feel that my problem is worsening by time as I have just bought a gun a while back and I feel like a time bomb now. I may do something crazy any moment. Seriously I can't deal with offences and failures anymore. I want to kill someone so badly the next time I'm triggered and then either get away with it or kill myself but I'm afraid that there is hell and I may end up there. But really is this feeling normal? Do everyone secretly feel like this at some point in their life or is it just me?