Is it normal that i have anxiety when i wake up every morning?

Sounds like generalized anxiety/ OCD. Speak to a therapist and see a psychiatrist. Even though it's not normal it is very common.

It sounds like your stressed and dealing with anxiety. I have anxiety issues but not quite like yours. The sudden lumping in your throat, feeling nauseous, gut turning, feeling like your about to explode. Any little thing can set you off. You should try to reduce the stress in your life. Make some changes and talk to your hubby. Let him know your not happy and how your feeling. It's better to be honest rather then live forever unhappy. It's easy to say but I know it's hard to actually do it. I'm currently working on trying to make changes. I know how it feels to always wonder if this is really my life and when does it get better. I don't want to settle but I have and this is not how I want my life to be. But the only one who can change it us me. You need to take the first steps to make a change. Also maybe you should see a doctor for your anxiety. There are pills that could help. I realized just today the I'm in need of some to help me with mine. I haven't been to a doc yet but I plan on it asap. Hope everything works out for you.

Drop the worry. It won't do anything but hustle you into an early grave.

I can relate to the whole "life isn't what I imagined". For me it was hard to find the motivation to even change. Harder still to make the right changes. In many ways I'm still struggling to make my life into the idealistic vision it never became.

My advice: Take steps, even if it's small ones, to improve things. Go look for another job, tell your husband how you feel and go seek marriage counseling. It sounds extreme but I know many people who've had to do it.

It'll be hard. But often times in life it's the hardest decisions of all that turn out to be the right ones.

I do suggest you speak to your husband, find a way to re ignite the love, he is feeling the same way, I guarantee it! You have to get back on your feet and be the rock of the family and prevent it from falling apart.
Just remember there are people out there that wish they had love, and wish they could have children but they are not as blessed as you. So appreciate what u have been given.

Good luck.

Don't know what to say. Good luck

I'm in the military so i am faced with anxiety daily, nothing i can really change about that either until my enlistment is up. But i can say that the comments i have read have been very heartfelt and empathic to my feelings. I will say that since i posted the above comment, i have made so many changes to my life,small chnages but ones that make big impacts on the way i feel. I have been going to the gym and have lost 7 pounds, i have been spending so much more time with my children, i am taking two college classes and spending quality time with my friends. However my husband has been in the states for the past 3 weeks and i have enjoyed every minute he has been gone. But with that i realized how much i love him and miss his company. I think i needed a seperation, a break from my normal life. But i will still look into seeking out help from a therapist and possibly medication. I still feel like i have the weight of the world on my shoulders, but it is getting better.

I am sure there are people out there that are going through this.
This sounds quite sad!! If u let this keep going it will Hurt you all! The children are the innocent victims in this whole charade.