Is it normal that i hate and feel uncomfortable being touched?
I absolutely hate being touched by anyone, family members included.
Every time someone reaches out their hand somewhat close to my direction I flinch and back away, hugs and kisses from my family also make me uncomfortable, and I want to scratch and tear at the place I was touched, like I want to rip my skin off.
In the car I always move away and push against the door to avoid the person next to me touching me. My sister and stepdad treat my hatred for being touched this like a game and try to chase after me to hug me, and when I push them away my Mother says ‘It’s just a hug, why don’t you love them?’ This leaves a sour spot as now I hate the phase ‘I love you’.
I can’t bring myself to say it because of how uncomfortable I feel. My Mother always tells me that I should show more affection to my sister and when she wants a hug, hug her and tell her I love her.
I can’t stand physical contact or any form of affection anymore, I’ve always had and now it’s getting worse.