Is it normal that i feel damaged by my relationship with my mom?

Growing up in a single parent household signifies that I had to rely on my Mom, at least in a financial sense. Yet, emotionally I feel damaged. Whenever I would cry or express any emotion other than happiness I was immediately shut down. For example, when I would cry to her because of a difficult situation she would yell at me to stop crying and leave me all alone. Revise that sentence with some curse words and it will be more accurate. She had a hard childhood and suffers from depression but our relationship seems like it is dependent on her mood. If one thing goes wrong or upsets her she tends to yell and isolate herself. Many memories of my younger years feel tainted because I had to repress my own feelings in an attempt to keep her happy. I am eighteen now and about to leave for college. This is my last chance to have a relationship with her. I don't know how to deal with her negative attitude anymore and am excited to get away. However, I wish I could have a true relationship with her.

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  • Try loving and understanding her. It must have been hard to her.
    My father left when I was little.
    Mum is gone and I can never say I love you to her again.

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  • Ellenna

    It's a good thing you're leaving for college, but why believe there won't be another chance to have a good relationship with her? You're more likely to be able to do this when you're not living under the same roof.

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