Is it normal that i can't stand being around my kids?
I quit working 4 years ago when our first daughter was born. Quit the day she was born actually. I always wanted to be a mother and never wanted anything else. She's been difficult since birth. Not bad like tantrums and fits or anything like that. Not evil like I see other people describing their kids on here. Just so high maintenance. Very smart, wonderful girl. She's a blessing I know. Then two years later came baby #2. Much easier kid and also very precious. But now they're 4 and 2 and I just can't stand being around them. I can't bear to look at them sometimes and and I don't like to play with them. I'm very affectionate and DO play with them. I stay home and do everything I think is right with them. Hugs, kisses everything. We all even sleep in the same bed at night still. I keep thinking something will change and I'll start to enjoy them but it's worse every day. I don't want to take them to daycare cuz I want what's best for them and I like to think it's me. But why do I hate being around them so much and why do I NEVER enjoy them. When other people are around I do. Maybe I'm just burnt out on being alone with them all day, I don't know. Even if I had a little break maybe I would feel better. I run and stay in great shape. House is always clean but I'm incredibly lonely. I know it's not thek kids' fault cuz they didn't ask to be born and it's not like I don't want them. I just don't want to feel like I don't like them the way I do. I want to like my babies. It's so sad.