Is it normal that happy things repulse me?
Yesterday my family began placing christmas decorations, and playing happy christmas songs on a speaker. It looks like they were having a great time and were bonding a lot, but I couldn't get myself to go downstairs and help them.
The happiness radiated felt kinda overwhelming, like it was too much happines for me to bear.
It isn't because of christmas itself, this is just the most recent example. Everytime that either my family or my friends are very happy I feel repulsed.
I'm not depressed (that I know of) and I think i'm pretty normal, except that happiness like that seems too repulsive and unnatural