Is it normal i thought jesus was telling me to castrate myself?

When I was around 17 and ending around 19 when I had to leave Christianity for my mental health, I started to have a compulsive need to castrate myself as I thought my sexual desires were angering Jesus and it says if a part of your body sins against you, you have to cut it off so I thought I would become holy if I castrated myself and otherwise I would go to Hell.

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  • If something is telling you to harm, or mutilate yourself it's NOT Jesus.

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  • Not normal. I've never met any Christian with the same issue.

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  • Let's not blame Christianity for your misinterpretation of scripture. The same scripture states that our bodies are as temples to God, created by God, and to intentionally remove a piece of a temple created by God Himself would be a very poor moral decision.

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    • While what you are saying is true, Clunk, I feel you are being quite the Job's comforter here. There's been a whole spate of threads on this site recently by someone who is clearly just angry at God/the church. I think the answer they're looking for is less about raw truth than it is about their own feelings about their past.

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      • I'm not trying to give comfort. I'm simply stating the truth. I know what you're talking about, and I would suggest that one's own feelings mean very little in the long run, while the truth means quite a lot.

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        • I agree with you that feelings ultimately mean little while truth means a lot, but that's not the case in the eyes of the person you're trying to reach out to.

          I can't remember whether it was a novel or a jolly old churchwoman who taught me the notion of being 'too heavenly minded to be of any earthly good'. It stuck in my mind because it seemed oxymoronic (and a rather unforgiving judgment, too), but you might be able to appreciate what it's about, at least.

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    • Then why he did also say, you know, to do that shit?

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      • Bishop Challoner left a note for us on this matter:
        "[29] "Scandalize thee": That is, if it be a stumblingblock, or occasion of sin to thee. By which we are taught to fly the immediate occasions of sin, though they be as dear to us, or as necessary as a hand or an eye."

        I ask you this: Can your hand or your eye cause you to sin?
        No. They can not, for a hand or eye are merely parts of yourself, which is the greater cause of your own sin. So Jesus is using hyperbole to show that we should flee any and all occasions of sin, no matter how seemingly important to our own well-being they may be.

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        • Wait. I have a third question. Sorry.

          Hypothetically let's say someone went to mass for fun. She had no idea idea what she was doing so she just took her cracker and kind of waved her arms around having no idea how all the cross stuff works.

          Also she wasn't baptized.

          Burning in Hell or nah?

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          • Again, I am no judge of souls. What I say is purely based off of what I know to be effectively the effects on the probability of the different possible outcomes caused by different actions and sins.

            In this case, it was certainly an abuse of the mass. Since the person didn't know, it couldn't be a mortal abuse of the mass, meaning that it's not mortal sacrilege. The reason why it's an abuse of the mass is because it is sinful for an unbaptized person to partake in the Eucharist.

            Now,
            "Jesus answered: Amen, amen I say to thee, unless a man be born again of water and the Holy Ghost, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God." - John 3:5

            Bishop Challoner added the footnote:
            "[5] "Unless a man be born again": By these words our Saviour hath declared the necessity of baptism; and by the word water it is evident that the application of it is necessary with the words. Matt. 28. 19."

            So, I would suggest that the -likely- (again, I am no judge of souls) answer is yes. Of course, that is based on the assumption that she never figured out Christianity, and that she didn't die with the will to be baptized, but that would likely have been mentioned if it were the case.

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        • Also one more hypothetical question. Let's say there's this guy who likes to drug dogs. He doesn't poison them or anything like that, but he constantly gives them pills. You could kind of say he's a "dog piller" if you will. Would he be going to Hell?

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          • That sounds like an abuse of nature, but I don't think that's a mortal sin. Emphasis on "think", because I might be wrong there. I am unsure which vice that would fall under, though it would probably be either injustice or meanness. Neither of those are necessarily mortal, though, so I don't actually know the answer. I would guess that it wouldn't necessarily lead to Hell, but I wouldn't recommend anyone tests that theory.

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        • Okay. I can see where you're coming from on that.

          So I actually have a kind of weird hypothetical question I needed a second opinion on. This is pretty specific.

          Let's say someone constantly calls God "ol' shitcrackers" in their head and they're not at all sorry for this, but aside from this they're actually an extremely good person, are they going to Hell?

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          • Well, I'm no judge of souls, but I'll attempt to answer the question from a "probability" standpoint.

            There is an issue with your question, though. It is, in fact, a lack of information. For example, why do they call God that? Is it a mere misnomer, because if that's all it is, I see no danger to their soul at all.
            Do they mean it as an actual insult against God? If they do, their being "an extremely good person" doesn't matter, because they are actively insulting God, and to actively insult God is a mortal sin.

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  • So did you do it?

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  • I just foind out god was a p3do. So apparently mother mary was only 13. And I dont believe he actually did some magic. He fucked her for sure. He also knew he was going to fuck her one day so when he create he made her have a tight ass. Why this?

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  • follow your beliefs

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  • Sounds like you were mentally ill, religion made it worse in your case, a good reason why not everyone should be religious. And its sad people are made to see their natural instinctive urges as something bad and dangerous (not saying people should follow it blindly, like dont do it in a way that harms others). The vast majority have a sex drive at that age and its really just how nature designed us. The real harm is the urge to permanently harm yourself because of it.

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  • I think every pastor and youth group leader who says shit about women being too sexy and giving them impure thoughts needs to follow your example.

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