Is it normal i'm scared of people

I hated humans in general for a long time. I dont think i had social anxiety like you very obviously do. No one can read ur mind. Rest easy. If anyone could do that. They would be famous for it

Just know, that no one can read your mind and you need to remain calm. You are just paranoid about humans being able to read your mind, I had that too and still do :(

Just take some escitalopram coupled with some diazepam and you should be okay.

It’s normal.. I don’t really like certain people or going out all the time.. in fact, I can’t even stand people who can’t sit their asses home and just relax. I know people who go out every day and I honestly don’t know how they do it. When they would post it on social media, I would be jealous, but now, I could care less. It’s almost as if these people who need to go out all the time are in search of something. It’s like they’re filling a void. Regarding me not liking people and being out, I can’t really say that it’s 100 percent true. Its not always the case. It’s definitely situational. I dont really care for the people I work with and I can’t stand people in stores, the dmv, lines, malls, you get the idea. I also hate crowded areas and sometimes panic myself into mini attacks. I sweat like you and always think to myself , what are people thinking? Are they looking at me? Sometimes I even catch people looking at me and I confront them. When things get tense and I feel I may freak out, I just tell myself to relax, breathe, and not look at anyone. It does help on occasion. Learn to count. Taking baby steps also helps a lot. Set mini goals for yourself that you know you are capable of. Nothing drastic and uncomfortable. Remember, it takes time to get over social anxiety. And most important, when setting these goals.. do not try and accomplish all of them at once. I’ve tried that method and it became so intense and overwhelming. It doesn’t happen over night. I can tell you I’ve suffered from this for 15 years and still have my moments.

There are times when I need to grocery shop and refuse to because I don’t like going into crowded areas. Thankfully there are places that are open 24 hrs with self check out lines. I literally go in the early AM hours when most of the world is asleep. When I am in my element (playing sports, entertaining people with music and going to sporting events), I have a great time and make friends with strangers I may encounter. Not always does that happen. I literally have a good sense of people and can tell who’s genuine right off the bat. The reads of others have gotten so accurate, my friends ask me what I think of ‘so and so’ , and 9 times out of 10, I have them figured out after one encounter lol. Guys hate me for this super natural power because I have saved so many female friends from being with complete losers!

You would never know I had this social anxiety issue if you saw me in public, yet some people tell me they notice that I can appear uncomfortable and apprehensive in certain situations. My friends and some family members say I tend to keep a 4 foot space between myself and others. People who notice it but don’t mention it probably take offense to it when I back away from them a little during conversation. Now I admit.. some people just don’t know their damn space! And I hate that. Like seriously, back away. 3 feet personal space is normal. They probably think they have BO or something lol that’s what a friend once asked me. He asked me if he stunk or if his breath was offensive. I said “no, don’t be paranoid, I just like my space. I’m paranoid enough for the both of us” 😂

The other side of me can’t stand people and there are times where I am a complete hermit and refuse to go out anywhere. I go to the gym a lot and ignore the people there as well; except for one girl, but that’s just because she’s nice and a genuine sweet heart. My gym consists of mostly guys who walk around like they’re tough and buff when in reality, they’re not. I think a lot of guys my age are tools. I can admit as a male, I prefer to be around female friends over guys. There’s more to talk about than sex and drinking.

If you’re in high school, I suggest you join a group or club they may have after school or even during school, nights, weekends, etc. You can definitely find others (even like yourself) who share the same interests as you. You may change your opinion of people and what they’re thinking. Plus, think about this... anyone who is thinking badly about you must have their own issues they are not addressing. A lot of people (mostly bullies) like to focus their own problems onto others, mainly to make themselves feel better. Again, like the people who need to be out all the time (filling that void)

Eventually, you may start to enjoy being out in public. With the right people, it’s awesome. You may find yourself in a similar situation like myself, which is that you enjoy being with people and being out in the open; people who like you for you and share common interests, but most of all, those who are not judgemental and just good hearted. They do exist, and if they’re truly your friends, they WILL listen. You just have to look for them and trust your gut. Good luck! I hope you face your fear and knock it out of the park 😊

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I used to be this way, now I wouldn't say I hate people but I'd rather do my own thing. I'm always alone in my dark room all the time, but when I do go out, I'm usually calm.

Personally, I prefer when I'm outside while people are going about their business. For example, I hate going to the DMV since everyone is waiting in a building and being stationary.. I feel like all eyes are on me.

Since I'm such a recluse, I still feel broken in the outside world, but I find it pathetic to express my strong sense of depression and self inadequacy/anxiety in public, I act as if I am not a hallowed out soul and just a "normal" and "happy" person.. it works for me.

I once sat on the wrong seat in the plane, like a REALLY wrong seat.. I sat nearly in the front, I was so tense and couldn't care to look up at the seat numbers until I reached the back of the plane.. idiot, I know. Anyways, I'm confronted very awkwardly by a couple, I have NO SHAME WHATSOEVER, I get up with my stuff and proudly find my proper seat in the crowded plane, I DON'T CARE what that couple thought of me.. F*** them. I'm not a confident person whatsoever either, and as bad as it sounds, I just like to think as if I'm superior and better than everyone else.. who cares about those people?

Whenever I do stupid things in public, I ignore it and act is if nothing happened... I am very suave in these cases, even with my anxiety.

It's normal, social anxiety.

S O C I A L A N X I E T Y

Dude same I'm in highschool too and I always feel like people can read my mind all the time so I just start thinking about random shit like puppies and stuff😅

Look through this website: https://www.succeedsocially.com/. No, I'm not affiliated with it, but it has good advice.