Im the biggest attention seeker

go touch some grass instead of seeking attention from others

Lots of people love attention even though the majority won’t admit it but you’re batshit insane if you seek for it to the point of suicide.

The more you chase people, the more they tend to run away. I found that out the hard way.

Showing sympathy and empathy, especially for people you don't already know well, takes energy. People don't have endless energy to spend on other people's sorrows. They are burdened and stressed and they can only shoulder so much of another person's woes - and they have to be picky about whose woes they shoulder because their energy is limited. They tend to choose people who don't request more emotional energy than they give - or at least, people who don't preface the entire interaction with their own sorrows. Also, they won't necessarily understand why you are presenting them with your troubles. Most people exchange affection and care freely with people they like - even people they aren't necessarily friends with. It isn't something that needs to be 'owed' or 'bought' with a story. They don't understand why you are trying to 'extract' it from them in this energy-intensive way. They are used to giving it away for free. But first, they need to be convinced in their own minds that you aren't going to drain them of their emotional energy when they make themselves vulnerable to you, because that would be detrimental to them.

The isolated individuals who are desperate to show sympathy and 'rescue' birds with broken wings don't tend to be healthy people in my experience, either. They can become controlling further down the line, and when you stop being 'needy' they just move onto the next 'case'. So you are encouraged to stay miserable to keep the flow of affection coming from them. They are dependent on your misery because they are 'getting' something out of rescuing you and when you stop needing rescuing, they will move onto someone else. If you have had multiple run-ins with people like this, it's understandable how you naturally might feel inclined to preface new interactions with you woes... but these aren't the sorts of people you want to attract. They're not going to make you stronger and happier and able to have positive relationships in the long run, if you hope to keep their 'love'.

Just as an experiment, why not insert yourself into a random party or social gathering or whatever where you don't know many people, and make a rule with yourself that for 5 minutes you will not talk about yourself at all - you will only ask questions. If you are asked questions in return, make your answers short and don't make any reference to anything negative in your life or your emotions or your relationships. For five minutes. Keep focusing on questioning the other person on the basis of what they have already said.

How does that conversation go? You might have to do it a few times before it stops being awkward, but eventually you might find the person actually warms to you a bit.

Therapy has taught me that I was not rejected because I was simply 'worthless' or 'a second-rate human being'. I just wasn't trying to be accepted in a way that worked. My way of forming relationships was not bringing success and needed to be retrained if it was to be successful, and although that retraining goes down pretty deep in your psychology, it's not the same thing as saying that I myself was dysfunctional. In reality, it was about making specific changes in conscious habits and I was in full control of it. I mean, before, my behaviour even drove away people who initially might have been friends to me. Understanding other people's probable limits, changing your way of interacting and curbing your impulses really does result in a change in how you are regarded and treated by them.

No bueno.

Your wrists must be entirely scar tissue

That's pathetic.

Piss off.

Get on the right meds and you'll become a fully functional adult.

sdfbn

That sounds pretty unstable and you need professional help.

Well, you should chill a bit