Is it normal to have relationship w/ the people in dreams?

Ever since I was a young child, I loved “Eddsworld.”

If you are unfamiliar with it, it’s a cute little comedy webtoon created by Edd Gould about his friends, who get into lots of adventures.

It has a very large fanbase, but sadly the creator (Edd) died to cancer in 2012.

The fanbase is... well when you have an all male character cast, you know how the internet takes that source content.

But I haven’t seem to have found someone like me. Someone who takes the four characters, and has dreams about them. Almost every night.

It started around when I heard Edd died. At the time, we never knew if Eddsworld was going to continue, so 12 year old me was heartbroken.

I started to have very vivid, almost lucid dreams where I would hang out with the cast and go on wacky adventures. In the dreams, they were my brothers. We had a very close bond and loved each other like more than family.

It was like living a second life when I went to sleep. I would actually want to go to sleep on my bedtime, which surprised my parents to say the least.

After all these years, and still having these dreams now and again (maybe once a month?) I realize why. My young kid mind needed something to attach to, to make me feel loved.

I was being heavily abused by my dad, who would constantly be drunk. We are on good terms nowadays, but he would do terrible shit. My mother was depressed, possibly suicidal.

My school hated me, because the accommodations needed for my medical issues were “bothering them.” The kids hated me too.

My brother however? Who is nine years older than me, coming from a different father who is long gone? I love him. He would always try to help, but could never since he was away with his dad or away for other stuff a lot.

I’ve come from a rough place, but god dammit if i didn’t have Eddsworld i don’t think i would have made it. It stopped me from commiting suicide, knowing I had online EW fans who were my friends.

But this relationship with Edd, with Tom, Tord, and Matt. It’s always felt so real. Tord can ask me to eat cereal when I wake up. I do, go to bed that night, and he is delighted I did it, because my dream Tord loves cereal.

It’s been so long since we started that they’re almost like different people sometimes. I’ve gotten to “know them.”

So, all of that being said... am I correct in thinking this has just been a way to cope with my trauma, or am I just a lunatic? :)

Thanks,

-M

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  • I don't know for sure, but I think you may be correct in thinking that it may be a coping mechanism. Those dreams sound pretty cool, though! I don't remember many of my dreams anymore and most of them are so strange and make no sense at all.

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    • Aw that’s a shame you don’t remember your dreams. But yeah! They are pretty enjoyable. :)

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  • Not exactly related.

    I had a dream about Etika recently (if you don't know who that is I'm just gonna finish on the fact that he's a youtuber and you can google the rest), he was about to jump off of the bridge and I tried to talk him out of it. He jumped anyway, I woke up and cried myself back to sleep. I just wanted to get that out of my system and I couldn't since I've been shadow banned from making posts.

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    • oh yeah, i know what happened to him. i never watched his content,, i’m sorry you had to have a dream like that, obviously he was someone you really enjoyed.

      also, don’t feel bad for wanting to tell me. people here can be real nasty sometimes.

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  • Wtf

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    • yeah i though i would get that sort of response...

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