Is it normal to have fetish admission anxiety
So I'm not a pushy person by any stretch of the imagination, I'm a lover not a fighter and I'd like to embrace myself sexually but the anxiety I have surrounding my fetishes refuses to let me.
I'm really laid back with practically everything, but when it comes to getting into bed with a partner and telling her what i'm into, my hands go all clammy, my chest feels tight, and my heart rate starts racing to something inhuman.
I'm not even into anything illegal, as far as fetishes go, mine are arguably quite tame (pee, ice, oil, rope, spanking, fun with foodstuffs), but I never see it from the perspective of "well if she loves me maybe she won't mind".
My train of thought always makes me think she'll think it's weird, slap me, jump out of bed immediately, and run a mile. My anxiety increases when I have genuine feelings for the girl i'm sleeping with and no girl who is serious about finding someone wants to hear about fetishes upfront. It's very frustrating.
Is it normal?