Is it normal to hate my family and be treated like this
I'm keeping it real. I really really hate my family. I don't believe they are there for me at all. My family treats me like shit. And what I mean by that is an outsider. I get put down for wearing makeup and it does hurt even though I ignore it. I went out for a walk and they all started calling me a hoe because only "hoes" do that. They think that I just go outside and walk outside for no reason trying to get "hit" on. My entire family has been talking shit about me for 4 straight years when I do everything they tell me to do so I don't get judged. Believe it or not but I have done ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING they said to make them the slightest, tiniest proud of me and to stop pestering me. I have talked to my family multiple times and it's like everything I do and say is used against me. I feel mad and sad and weak. I just feel like giving up and losing all hope. Everyday I wake up trying to be happy. Every SINGLE day I distance myself from my family to be happy because they bring SOOO much stress on me. I am very depressed on the things they say to me and it's like tearing me apart both physically and mentally. When I was little my family destroyed my dreams before I even attempted them. I have lost soooo much from my family. I lost hope and they don't even trust me. When I go to work they don't even believe that I am there... Yeah that's how sad it is. When I am at school, literally a security guard has to check in with me to MAKE SURE I AM AT SCHOOL. How fcking ridiculous. I really hate my family and I don't care if they are ""protective"" or not. I am losing SOOO much hope and love for my family. I really just want some help at the moment ;( Is this normal??