Is it normal to hate making and eating food?
I hate everything about it. It's too much effort for me to make anything, even just microwaving a bowl of oatmeal because I have to get a bowl, get a spoon, get a measuring cup, then measure the oats, measure the water.. blah blah blah. Sounds easy enough? Then why does it take me literally 20 minutes to make it? Because it's taking all the stuff out, doing it, and then cleaning it all up, wiping off the counter because I get water everywhere, or cleaning the microwave because the oatmeal boils over.
I can't stand it. If I can't take prepared food out of a package, then I can't be bothered.
Same with eating - the whole process of having to eat because it takes me so extremely long. Eating a small bowl of oatmeal takes an hour for me because it's so thick and hard to move in my mouth and I want to be careful not to choke. But everything takes me so long to eat. I don't get it? So eating has become a major ordeal for me and it's something I wish I didn't have to waste time doing. But I did end up in the hospital for several days for malnourishment and dehydration. I told them I'm just annoyed by food and don't have time for it, but they didn't really think twice about it.
Is this normal? I don't think it's an eating disorder because I still eat. It's not like I'm disgusted by food (I am picky and don't like a lot of things. I like plain, bland things). But I get so angry and annoyed by how long it takes to make and eat food. I wish I never had to eat.