Is it normal to believe i'm cursed to be forced sex?
Molested as a child, sexually assaulted as a teen and raped as an adult. Multiple men on multiple occasions all through my lifetime. I must give off a vibe or maybe say or do the wrong thing to a men for them to think its ok to do stuff to me. Also I think I did something so bad in a past life or going to do something so bad later in life that I'm paying for it in advance. I don't know whats wrong with me. Everyone thinks I'm crazy and think I'm having dreams and nightmares from the one incident as a child by imaging all these different men and scenarios but I know this isn't the case. I see a therapist regularly as well and she thinks I'm suffering from ptsd and borderline personality disorder and that may be true but I know what's happening to me, but I don't understand why. Is this normal?