Is it normal this still bugs me sometimes?
I typed it all out in a reddit post, so I’ll just copy paste it here: I pretty much jinxed myself by using the phrase “bad memory”
So like many people 2016 was overall a shitty year for me. But, I had one good memory, for a little bit anyway. My bookstore was having an event for the release of Harry Potter and the Cursed Child. My mom suggested I tell a friend of mine about it (and this was significant because I was having a kinda rocky relationship with this friend at this point).
It was an overall great experience. I reconnected with my old friend, even made a new one. Not being a very sociable person it was one of the few outings I had that year. My mom opted to stay but not interfere with me or my friends.
My friend didn’t stay the whole time, but me and my mom stayed to midnight when the book was released. While we were waiting something REALLY stupid happened. My mom, who never fails to find something wrong with how I’m dressed, shook my shirt to get dandruff off of it, and referring to that specific moment I said “that’s gonna be a bad memory.” And then she made a really disturbing face, implying she was frustrated with me, and completely misunderstanding what I said thought I said that the whole night was a bad memory because of that one thing. I explained to her what I meant and I was ok for a while.
I don’t know if it was my subconscious or what, but now I wasn’t able to think of the one good memory I had that year without thinking of that one stupid moment. I tried talking with my mom about it the next day, thought it would be a simple conversation and I’d be over it, but ended up being a really long, uncomfortable talk leading to sensitive topics, with my mom again completely misunderstanding what I was saying.
Every time I’ve mentioned it to my mom since she says all she remembers is rubbing dandruff off. I know it doesn’t seem like a big deal, but like I said it was one of the few good memories I had that year and my ocd and anxiety ridden mind had to ruin it like it ruins EVERYTHING!