Is it normal that my friend is so intolerant of my anxiety?
Since coming off my old antidepressant, I have gone from being happy-go-lucky and gregarious, to being insecure and worried that people will hate me or reject me. It will take time for my new one to kick in, and it's not reputed for transforming people's personalities in such a dramatic way.
My friend knows I have come off that med. Still, every time worry or fear comes out of me, it seems to nettle her. It's like, she doesn't make a connection between my personality and my wellness. It's almost as if weakness and lack of confidence actually made her angry. She only seems to want to know that I exist when I'm cheerful and carefree. That's hard to achieve now I'm not on the 'happy pill'.
I mainly want to understand: why is she like that? I don't overburden her with my troubles or make a lot of demands on her time. I try to be understanding with her. I ask her how she is feeling, and if she is angry. But she seems to become exasperated and overbearing with me at times when what I need most is reassurance. Why is she like that? I can't get the self back that she used to like because I can't take that antidepressant any more! I really don't want to lose her.