Is it normal that it makes me horny to know about the sex life of my crush?
There's this girl I really like at the moment, but she has a boyfriend so she can't be with me. I know that most of the time men hate to hear about the past sex partner of someone or who they are currently with etc. but for me I don't know, it kind of makes me horny. She knows it and so she tells me a lot of stuff, like what exactly she does with her boyfriend, what positions she likes, where he cums, etc. Also she said sometimes she imagines having sex with me and I wanted to know every detail of what we're doing etc.
And now she's with her boyfriend I don't know if they're having sex she said she doesn't know because she doesn't feel good but I wanted her to send me a message while she has sex so she said no, then I said alright but right before it or right after it but she didn't want to do that sadly… it makes me really horny and I don't know why because I have feelings for her, I don't like her only on a sexual level but first I like her as a person and as my friend, so is it normal when you have a big crush on someone that things like these make you horny? Or am I just trying to hurt myself, although it doesn't hurt me (or not anymore maybe).