Is it normal that i wish i had been sexually abused as a child?

If that happened , you wouldnt be the same person today

I was molested by my brother as a boy. It's not desireable. I was made to believe it never happened because he said he would kill me. At family gatherings as a kid, I would blurt out "(insert name) put his thing in my butt". I was outed a as the goofy kid who would do anything for laughs. Growing up I was very quiet and innocent. He took that from me. I lived most of my youth as a comedian unknowingly constantly crying for help. Of course it wasn't all just horrible nonstop, but now as I'm older I see a lot of things. You start to remember the years that you had worked to move past. I have OCD that keeps me a little occupied and I live small. Small apartment, usually in one room. You don't want to be molested. While i think it's all tought me to appreciate good things, enjoy having a normal life.

Many women have rape fantasies, but that doesn't mean they'd actually enjoy being beaten up by a bunch of drunks in a dog-shit strewn alley and given a selection of STIs.

You can look back with the perspective of what you know now and think you might have enjoyed being sexually assaulted as a child, but I doubt if you can truly know what the reality of that would have been like and how you would have felt afterwards.

It's not abuse if you want it to happen.

If you wanted it ....it would have been amazing .....it happened to me and I enjoyed it even though I didn't want it .....idk everyone is diff .but I still fantsize about him doing it now and it turns me on .......o it was my brother BTW ....

Female sexual fantasy of wanting to be dominated. Pretty normal.

my sister abused me i have had to come to terms with it, don't wish to be abused it is not sexy and it is not erotic.

My piano teacher sexually abused me. In the long run, I think it worked against me.

To those saying it would have negatively effected me, I understand that completely. I guess I'm not asking if it would've been cool HAD it happened, just whether or not I'm alone in this fever fantasy?

This is seriously atypical. Did you not get enough attention as a kid? I can say from experiences that being taken advantage of or being molested can seriously psychologically fuck you up.

Childhood sexual abuse pretty much ruined my life. I'm in my mid 30's and really only just getting my life together for the first time. I always wanted to have sex with older men when I was a kid, but then my uncle took advantage of that in a way that was extremely forceful, intimidating, (he threatened to kill me if I told anyone) and not at all sexy. That said, I don't judge people at for having rape fantasies and I don't want you to feel guilty for feeling that way. As a young adult, helping other people play out their rape fantasies, this time in the role of the perpetrator, actually helped me in my recovery. I actually really enjoyed raping older white men. It helped me work out some of my anger towards my father, too.

it seems like you would be a great candidate for age play in Bdsm. it is a normal fantasy if which a lot of people have.

What's up with females that want this, sheesh. It's less bad if a woman does sexual things with a boy. When I was 10 I wished a group of slutty women would have sex with me but that'd probably make the guy submissive for life so better he loses it to a girl his age.

Now I wasn't molested, but I did have sex at seven years old,
(many times)
with someone who was older.
I wasn't forced or anything and it was one of the fondest experiences of my young life.

Ok, Now, People sexually abusing children is wrong. We know that and I am fully sure you do too.
But to be completely honest, I do and I have fantasized about it too. I have had fantasies about being forced into... Well basically anything that I didn't want to do, Including sexual assault.

Anyways, I don't think it's wrong if you fantasize about it for a reason of it being more of a desire of wanting yourself to be small, helpless and innocent and have a person come and dominate you in such a time. Anything that would be able fit the category of being small, helpless and innocent is a child... Or just a small, helpless and innocent person.

I was abused by my scoutmaster when I was 13 but I loved it and went back for more till I was 16

I said it's normal. Masochism?

use it. dress like a child and man fuck your brains out.

In answer to your question NO it is not normal to have these fantasies, well at least in my opinion.

You are getting quite annoyed with people who are responding to you in a negative manner, but you got to understand, this is a highly emotive subject. I understand you are only asking if this a fantasy that other people might have, however you are going to get people reacting in an instinctive manner which will come out as an attack on you.

I am a mother of two grown up boys and know that if ANYONE attacked them sexually, they would be dead by my own hands.

Hopefully you won't have these fantasies anymore.

Yeah, hi. Uh, what the fuck is wrong with you?

Hell no, that shit ain't normal! It's disgusting really. You ought to be grateful that you were not abused or molested insread of fantasizing about it.

If we all agree that we live in a victim society and that some victim cards have more value than others then we all know that the childhood sex abuse victim card is the highest one in the whole hierarchy. Everybody will love you and hate your perp, to the point of wanting to travel abroad and spending money to kill him just so they can virtue signal easily. So yes it kinda makes sense in my book.

I don't think that's a normal fantasy. Even in terms of fantasies.