Is it normal that i don't hate my rapist?
When I was 15, I was raped on my way home from school. At the time I was terrified, and it was painful, and it still makes me nervous to think about it. But if I could meet the guy today, I don't think I'd be mad. I don't think I could be. I'd just want to know why. Is there something wrong with me, should I feel differently?
EDIT: In response to the people questioning how I feel in terms of sexuality. I tend to avoid sexual situations, most likely because of this. I've had boyfriends in the past, but never had sex with any of them. I've been told that I need to move past this, but I don't know if I can. It doesn't feel right. It feels dirty.