Is it normal ifeel like im racist now
Somewhat recently me and my ex broke up. It was rather abrupt. Not really even sure why.
But not long after i found out from his friends that he started doin drugs and being a hoe.
Accidently and unknowingly, i met one of the girls hes been in and out of. We were almost friends until the topic of my sons dad came up and i told her his name. She changed from normal white to like .. Ghostly white. Like paper! Never seen that before.. Found out she was one of several hos hed gone though in the last month.
Ever since, i basically stopped talking to everyone but my family.
Id recently met a girl i used to work with who was white and cudnt even look at her! ):
I dont know why im being this way. I live in a 99% white city. The only ppl who also arent white are the chinese ppl in the chinese restaurant .
But i find myself unable to speak to anyone white who isnt 40 and older. Literally unable to speak. I just chuckle and putmy head down like im lookin in my purse for something . I think im racist now. Is that possible/ normal?