Is it normal i want to try hard drugs(meth cocaine and heroin)
I was abused by my controlling father and neglected by my mother in my childhood. I was bullied throughout my childhood and adolescence, and as a result I lost all my confidence and lack self assertiveness. I have read that these hard drugs make you feel confident, make you feel invincible, and impart a sense of euphoria,
I am after these effects of the hard drugs. I don't do any drugs currently and illicit drugs are extremely hard to find where I live. It has reached to this point that I am thinking about reading chemistry books and synthsize these drugs myself(so that they are pure and free from impurities as street drugs are). I am well aware of the dangers of the hard drugs.
So what do u think?