Is it normal I'm lonely but don't like people getting close to me?
I know I wasn't always like this, but now this is just how it is.
I've tried to keep to myself a lot; pretty natural introvert, plus I have social anxiety. When I go home I go straight to my room and don't say anything beyond "hi." (I don't have a great relationship with my family.)
When I'm at school I interact with the same group of people, but I'm never really "a part" of the group. They buy presents for each other, they go out, but I don't join them. I never felt connected to them so it didn't hurt much.
Now that I'm getting older, I want to be around people more, but not the people around me. Does that make sense?
It is really started to hurt me from how lonely I feel.