Is it normal i lost interest in a hobby after a death in my family?
This happened several years ago and I'm still not completely sure why.
I played violin in high school and was pretty passionate about it, always trying to get better and even took lessons outside of school.
I lost my stepdad, who I was very close to, very tragically and unexpectedly towards the end of my sophomore year, and he had been the one to introduce me to the violin and I even started out on a violin he gave me.
I also had a solo competition not long after his passing and because I was still shaken and also had the nerves of performing solo in front of a judge, I performed horribly and got negative feedback from the judge. This did shake my confidence a little and I was ashamed and disappointed in myself, but I don't think this was the sole, or even main reason I lost all interest in the months after.
I didn't practice at all that summer and when it came time to return to playing in school my junior year, I dreaded it and felt absolutely drained. I kept trying to push through, only to get to the point to where I couldn't even bring myself to play it and hated even getting the violin out of the case. I didn't care about improving anymore or anything to do with playing. I hated everything to do with violin for years after this and my interest has never returned other than briefly in the past couple of years when I've tried to play it again, but I absolutely will not play in front of others anymore.
This has been the weirdest almost overnight (or at least it felt very fast) loss of interest for something I was so passionate about that I've ever experienced, and I still can't figure out if it had to do with grief or what happened. I changed a lot after the passing of my stepdad and lost some interest in some of my other hobbies as well, but they were more gradual and I still participate in a couple.