Is it normal i forced myself on my roommate during a seizure?
I am a 26 year old female caregiver who lives with the 65 year old man I caregive for. Both of us are technically disabled; I have epilepsy and struggle to find a medication that fully stops the seizures. I am currently on the highest dosage of depakote they can give a person in addition to another anti convulsant. My roommate has Parkinson's and a back injury.
About a week ago I think I was too late taking my morning medication and ended up having a seizure. I cannot remember what happened afterwards so my roommate had to tell me and I had to piece it together from what I could find around the apartment. After my seizure, I removed my pajama bottoms and threw them in the trash can. I grabbed a spatula and popped one of the electric burners off the stove. However, the thing that concerns me the most is what I did next.
I walked over to my roommate and forced myself on him while bottomless and he had to fight me off. He knew I was in a post seizure state. Apparently, I kept repeating, "Don't you want me? Don't you want me?" He said he responded, "Even if I did, this way wouldn't be right."
I woke up about an hour later and started vomiting with a massive migraine that happens after I have a seizure. This behavior REALLY concerns me. If the sexes had been switched, it could have been SO much worse. It would have been a 26 year old man forcing himself on an elderly disabled woman, and the men in my family are large. I'm not necessarily a small person myself and I'm surprised (and grateful) he fought me off.
I told my roommate to ALWAYS call 911 when I have a seizure no matter what. He didn't in this instance because he was afraid of embarrassing me, but I went to the hospital anyway once I was awake and aware.
I am NOT someone who does stuff like this to people, especially crippled old men who depend on me. He took it with humor, and has been making jokes about it, but I think it's his attempt to make things less uncomfortable. I feel horrible. I essentially assaulted him and have no memory. When I finally came to, my pajama bottoms were in the trash and the burner was in the crisper drawer in the fridge. I also don't like that I was messing with the stove, due to fire...
Regardless, the I ensured that my roommate knows if I have another seizure CALL AN AMBULANCE. I don't care about embarrassment. I've been in two comas before because of this condition, I can't go without medical help.