Is it normal for me to have this social situation?
I'm an only child and I don't come from a rich family, a broken one, in fact. I had a very good social life all through middle school, but when I left for high school to a private school far away, I lost all my old friends. I felt like it was impossible making new friends and I soon gave up. At most all I have from highschool are acquaintances. I do well academically and you could say I'm a nerd and introverted to an extent, but not totally, I'm good at writing and speaking on stage, which has helped me gain some popularity. But interpersonal relationships are hard for me.
I finished college and even though I am apart of certain groups, I connected with them only for work and if we went out, I tried to make small talk but relationships never went beyond that. I started blaming my parents separation for my withdrawal from people and not being able to make friends. Sometimes I feel I say the most boring or common things to fit in. I wish I could make more friends. I'm working on it with my old childhood friends, I am arranging to meet them soon, but I feel like I'm the most boring and ugliest of them. I became depressed and started to neglect myself. Is it normal to have these kinda problems. I really am trying to get closer to people