If all my obsession is this? do i have no place in occupation?

All i'm obsessed over are the software 3ds max and autodesk maya which i by time being own as pirated and cracked version and i like to make various very intermediate and user friendly models but that do still take some effort, but definitely not the most tideous and hair pulling ones. as well as photoshop. so unless i'm a complete world record professional and i'm physically and mentally too lazy to work in other workplaces, do i plain simply deserve to sleep on benches and drink sewer water?