I want to jump my cousin every time I see him
I'm male and in love with my male cousin, he's not really my cousin but my mom is practically his dad's brother. He doesn't know I love him but his brother does, they're distant so I'm not worried. The worst part is I'm pretty sure I'm demisexual and he's the only person I've ever liked, not just in a romantic way he is also one of the very few people I like in a friendly way. Every time I think of him I get lost in a fantasy, and every time I see him I want to jump him. What should I do. Keep in mind there is a four year age gap.