I try too much to be perfect.help.

So,It all started in FIRST grade.I used to get bullied by a lot of people..If by my looks or my personality(Silly at that time).Probably,both.I got bullied till the 5th grade when I said STOP.I wanted to try something,I wanted to be pretty and so I started to pay so much more attention to who I am, how I look like.I absolutely LOVE to look "perfect".I gain such a happy mood when I get called pretty or when they notice pretty things about me(You can't even IMAGINE how happy I can be)Yes,I have acne,I try all my best and take care of my skin a lot but I can't help it,It's...The hormones and stuff.I have a, let's say...Medium nose(Not too big not too small but it's surely a bad thing about me) My face is kind of roundish because of the fat in my cheeks.Wanted to get rid of that so I bought a japanese massage thingie to massage my face every day with it,And saw results(My face got sharper and more like a v-shape that I currently try to achieve)!I try absolutely EVERYTHING to be pretty.I tend to overthink too...Example : I needed to stay in the school hall for one day (just to help people around there and stuff) We also have partners for that,So I got one guy from my class.We kept talking and talking and he suddenly said:We don't talk that much in normal classes,Just here.You're really friendly.I said thanks and then he started to ask me who I liked from my class.I didn't wanted to tell him who I liked but he kept insisting on it. He liked one girl that used to be my bestfriend(Not anymore) and he spawned 1 or 2 questions about her in our conversation.I started to think: Hmm,Maybe he likes me?Nah,He totally likes my best friend and tries to get to me so I can give him answers to his questions about her because I've been her bestfriend for more than 2 years.But what if he actually changed and just tries to be friendly with me? I kept thinking about sooooooooo many things. I also tend to hate myself in the pictures,I look absolutely HORRIBLE.I don't even have a facebook or any social thingies because I know I need to post pictures of myself and I absolutely hate it.Guys in my class make fun of me(In a nice way,How do I put it,They just want to gain my attention or something).I changed a lot from my 5th grade till now(I'm in the 8th grade). I have perfectly straight bangs(I get a lot of compliments for my perfect straight bangs)I have brown hair and some blonde ends(My hair is like..47 cm),My eyes are brown to green.People say bad things about my nose(That it's too big or something(Not sure if they are joking or not) I think my best feature are my eyes.My body is not too fat nor too slim.People also compliment me about the...way I act.That's what they say.That it has something to do with the way I do facial expressions or how my voice changes and stuff.I really wanna try to be more happy and stop thinking so much when it comes to looking pretty.That's all I wanna say.