I really need help with my drinking?

Please get some help.

Google AA and find a zoom meeting is my suggestion ❤️

Sounds like you want to stop so do it. Go to AA and stop feeling like a pathetic loser. Get your shit together, just gotta stop for one day than repeat.

Yes. You definitely need help. I think different people have different relationships to alcohol. Some drink only in social occasions, some drink to reduce their nerves. But some people start to "need" a drink and develop an addiction. Once alcohol is causing problems in your life you need to get professional help.

You already made a big step and probably the most important by admitting and accepting that you have a problem and willing to be helped.

M brother is an alcoholic and only pauses when he's done something terrible while drunk so that everyone forgets how a bastard he had been and then he gets back to it.

Bitch I'll help you. Pour dat drank coz we gon get fuuuuucked

For years I have driven past billboards that say something to the effect of "Stubbornness kills more men than anything else."

It's actually true. While some females also do it - denying that you actually have a problem - or not wanting a label - cases a large number of people (especially males) to refuse to seek treatment.

In my case I did not want to have Asthma. I struggled badly for years with significant health effects because I did not want to admit that I had an allergy problem.

Finally one day I was sitting in a business seminar where my hands were so swollen that I could barely bend my fingers, my entier body similarly swollen, and I felt like shit... (not to mention that I could not breath so well). when the speaker hit me with a line that to build a business (any business) that you are going to have to do things you don't want to do - and your refusal to do them are the key things holding you back from success.

The next Monday I scheduled a Dr appointment to talk about my allergy issues... and admitted that I likely had Asthma. It took a couple months to complete all the testing and find which medications worked for me. Life became very beautiful at that point. I had wasted almost a decade of the best years of my life because I did not want to admit I had a disease; and was massively in debt.

Now I have healthy issues that the medical community has no answers for... yet.

Please be willing to admit to others that you have a problem (and not just on this forum) and get help.

Although you sound a bit like a troll, here goes. I've woken up with bruises in weird places and had no recollection of what happened. I've texted things I shouldn't have. I've found things in strange places in my house - last one was a pillow in my bathroom. And I've had complete blackouts.

Sleep is one of the main issues I had/have to deal with... I couldn't/can't sleep either. Tossing and turning in a puddle of sweat and the mind not shutting down is awful but it gets better eventually. Try to think of it as being sober-curious... even if you are functional and fulfill your obligations, it's amazing how many other things you usually neglect can be done. I'm not at all on a high horse here, I allow myself to drink but less often. I have zero control when it comes to how much I drink so the only option for me is not to drink.

I'm not a fan of AA for several reasons but the "just for today" approach is quite helpful.

When I was in high school, me and my friends were drinking. One of them tripped and ate a coffee table and broke half her tooth. It was HILARIOUS.

AA is a hard concept. They push Jesus and force you to admit you have a disease. I don’t think addiction is an illness. It’s awful. But not a disease.

You need to set a date that’ll be your first day sober. Even if you go mad hard prior, at least you’ll be somewhat prepared. You’ll have to find another crutch. Whether it’s working out (which is the best option Bc of endorphins and such), or a club, or fucking reading. But you have to find a new addiction.

Cheers, babe.

You sound like an alcoholic.

You chipped your tooth from being careless due to drinking? You allowed yourself to be so vulnerable that you would cause yourself severe pain? Accept that you have a problem. Accept that there is an addiction. Understand how it's harmful and how you could be, including with alcohol if you can handle it. You have to understand why it's a problem and why you want to change. You're not too weak to be in control of what you do, are you? Are you a slave to your desires? You could be better than that. You just gotta want it bad enough, if you want something bad enough you find a way to get it. You've been wanting alcohol and now you're saying you want sobriety. It's up to you to achieve it or else people will think you're just saying what you think they wanna hear