I have extreme executive dysfunction
I have high functioning autism and very very bad executive dysfunction.
Everything worked well for me when I was in school because my life was organized and it had big consequences if I didnt go to school but since ive been unemployed and especially since the pandemic I cant do anything. Its very tiring for my mom she tells me stuff to do all the time but I cant do it. Even if I want to do something my body will not agree with my brain and I dont do the thing instead I surf the internet because it does not require motivation.
Ive tried to get help but the habilitation services dont understand they should be experts on autism spectrum disorders but they say I look normal and that I act normal and I have normal intelligence so what can they do? They say I am able to email them that I need help but its always my mom but I have not told them this.
My mom can make me a schedule or a list but I need consequences or I cant do the things... The things feel unimportant and worthless doing if not doing them doesnt get consequences..... But what would the consequences be? Im not losing a salary, im not being kicked out of school or getting bad grades - nothing happens. I tell myself I should still do these things for my mental health but it doesnt work,, It doesnt matter if its a fun thing or something I want to do.... Doing things make me so tired too. You can maybe imagine its hard having to force yourself to do the smallest most uselss of things and it causes guilt feelings and bitterness when I fail