I have big mood swings and it is staring to worry me

I always have been a very emotional person (i went through something a bit traumatic and got depressed but since i got "better" i express everything much more openly or maybe i just let myself feel much more). However, i have this online friend with whom i have been talking for like a year or so and she takes lots to respond so i usually send her multiple messages until she answers cause she says she doesn't mind and she wants to keep updated with my life and that stuff. The thing is, the chat became almost like a diary and, telling her my shit almost made my mood swings more noticeable for me???? Bc they are now written and i am aware of how many times it happens.

Well i just wanted to ask if it was normal bc i sometimes get scared that i might have some sort of actual problem bc sometimes it gets concerning.

Resuming, this is basically my mood calendar, help me out y'all i am scared.

Generally happy till April 2nd, had a drunk breakdown and wanted to self harm and kms basically.
By the 5th i was okay. Like, as if nothing happened. Then the 6th i got sad again but not as bad. The 8th I wanted to get a kpop dude doing the T pose tattooed for some reason, idk why this is written i just thought it was funny. The 24th i drunk again and was in a very social setting which usually makes me very anxious but i was v exited and happy (weird lol), smoked some weed and it was amazing, felt like cloud 9 (so this proves that the alcohol wasn't actually the problem on my first breakdown). Then the 27th i wanted to kill myself again for no reason 🧍 and i have been mostly okay till today, May 15th, I am close to a breakdown and i almost sh like half an hour ago and i am feeling pretty down.

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This is v long, sorry, but what do y'all think? Is this concerning enough to search for counseling of some sort? Or is it a normal thing. Like, people change emotions right? It ain't that weird. Idk, what do y'all think.

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Comments ( 15 )
  • SkullsNRoses

    Mood swings of this intensity are not normal and I agree you should seek help from a professional in managing them. Nobody deserves to feel the need to self harm or commit suicide.

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  • Tommythecaty

    I love my mood swings, wildly entertaining.

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    • Wow3986

      Wow. Glamorizing mood swings. You're a disgusting insensitive piece of shit.

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      • Tommythecaty

        They are glamorous moods and as such must be glamourised.

        Don’t cuss so, it’s very insensitive.

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        • Wow3986

          Mood swings is nothing glamorous. It actually is a very serious issue people struggle with. You're just an insensitive jerk that doesn't know what they're talking about. Seek help.

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          • dude_Jones

            My friend Tommy is the help. You are the help, the problem, and the awareness. Go help your own problem after becoming aware of each.

            The OP has awareness too. Are you aware of the collective IIN mind to which your awareness may or may not add any value? That is not only your problem, but a collective IIN problem. Help for each would be appreciated by all.

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          • Tommythecaty

            Mood swings not being glamorous are not the same thing as the glamorous mood swings.

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