I find it hard to open up
When I try to open up by speaking to someone, I just don't get to see myself better not to mention I find myself stressing myself up that I cannot open up properly no matter what I do I still cannot convince myself to open up, maybe it's that feeling that I am to afraid of everyone that I see but also my insecurities, whenever my friends try to cheer me up by smiling I do not laugh nor smile not even one bit. I am really thinking about just giving up on opening up considering it's happened for more than year since I've never got to fully open up.