I feel like most people secretly dislike me
In the past I found out people who were my 'friends' secretly didn't like me (there was a notebook I found with a bunch of things said how they were only pretending to like me)
So for years, I always have fears that people secretly dislike me. Friends, coworkers.. I feel like everyone talks behind my back and they're just being nice to me for whatever reasons.. that they don't really like me. It really traumatized me I guess.