I feel like i'm about to go to prison. that's why i cheat.
We've been married 34 years. Raised 5 children. All now adults, married with children of their own. A few weeks ago I got a girlfriend. Don't know how this new woman is going to pan out yet so for the sake of everyone: adult children, and our grandchildren, as well as my wife (cheating is a rotten thing to do; I feel like I would be giving her an emotional upper cut to the gut should I admit things to her), who I certainly care a great deal for, I'm keeping it all a secret for now. I simply don't love her anymore. I'm tired of the sameness of my life with her. I'm 4 years away from retirement and that life with her seems like a nightmare. Like an oncoming prison sentence. So is it normal that I cheat?