I Feel Disgusted When I Look at Asian Men
I feel awful for saying this and I know there will be many angry replies to this statment. But I am honestly writing this out to seek your advice and honest thoughts. Since childhood, I've always felt that Asians are an extremely ugly race. I, myself, am Chinese, and I see myself as ugly too. My parents are always telling me that I should be dating Chinese men, but they are so unattractive to me. I tried to run down what I didn't like about them - their skinny hairless bodies (very effeminate looking), slanty shifty eyes, flat big button noses, a lot of them carry man purses, and they usually come with bad teeth or bad breath (due to either poor hygiene or something in the smell of their food). I feel the same way with Asian women too, but Asian men just look more terrible to me. This has always bothered me that I could be racist to my own culture and nationality, and that's the last thing I want to be. Is it normal to feel extremely disgusted and unattracted to all Asians, especially the Chinese? Is it normal to feel repulsed by how a whole race looks? I can't change the entire nation of China to look differnt, or to force them to learn to pick up better hygiene, so what I can do to stop feeling disgusted and disturbed everytime I see a Chinese or Asian man or woman?