I feel bad about being kinda mean to a girl when i was 7
When I was little I was friends with this girl. Looking back, she wasn't a very good friend. Then we started hanging out with another friend, who started to be mean to her and got me to follow along.
I know now that I have autism, which is why I followed along: because I didn't understand what I was doing. Actually I didn't do everything and I am getting a confused idea of what I actually did.
When the girl moved school, all this was pushed to the back of my head and I didn't think about it.
But then I had this one dream about it. And now I feel really bad for it. She has probably forgotten me, because I saw her earlier after she moved school out with a group of friends. Sometimes I forget for hours at a time and I don't feel bad. But then I have a dream that makes it all come back and I feel terrible.
What can I do to feel better? Is it normal to feel like this when I have a confused idea of what actually happened?