I desire conflict

I dont know why because im not a person who ever causes conflict nor am I forward. I dont confront people. I stay in my corner. But secretly I desire a relationship full of conflict. I find it to be something to strive for. When im with someone who starts arguments a lot I feel stimulated. I feel like we form a deeper and closer bond by arguing and I feel like its more normal. When things are easy all the time and someone is always nice it feels lame and I get suspicious of them and what they are hiding and I never get to let the part of me roam free which is the arguing one. Everyone annoys me anyway naturally so why not be with someone who likes to argue so I dont have to surpress my annoyance. I like intense emotions. I cant really be bothered with any other. For me lukewarm emotions are friendship and I talk to my friends sometimes, to check in and to not lose touch but I dont need people in my space often. If im gonna date someone I better love them so much i'd kill for them or else whats the point, im not gonna get anything out of it. But they still annoy me, because they are people. And when we annoy each other we should argue and make the relationship more fiery. Is this bad?

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  • LornaMae

    Hello! If you are OP of the other post I've been replying to for the last 40 minutes, you are a younger version of myself. I mean, both posts match incredibly. That's really not good for you and there are ways of dealing with all of it.

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  • 1WeirdGuy

    Sounds really toxic honestly. I think you might even be capable of physically abusing your partner

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