I am sexually attracted to my husbands friend
Ok let me say this first, my husband and I are in a very loving monogamish relationship. I would never do anything to hurt him. Monogamish means something similar to an open relationship but he and I are committed solely to each other and we have multiple sexual partners. However we have the restriction that we must both be present during anything with the other or be participating.
Ok now to the real issue. I am very sexually attracted to my husbands long term friend. I am submissive and a masochistic and whenever I'm around him I just really want him to use me however he pleases. However I already know that my husband is not into this idea. I will not act upon my desires because I know it will hurt him and I would never want that. I just really needed to get it off my chest since I've been trying to push it down for a year now.