I’m forcing my boyfriend to stay alive
My boyfriend attempted suicide 2 months ago when he shot himself in the head with a shotgun. He aimed the barrel up and put it under his jaw. He survived after I found him 16 hours later and took him to the hospital. His jaw, eyebrow bone, and cheekbone, was broken in half on one side where the bullet went through. Basically he had a vertical bullet path tunnel right up the right side of his face.
The bullet went through his brain, leaving him unable to verbally communicate or function his left arm and left foot, and his right eye had to be removed.
He’s not messed up mentally in anyway besides not being able to talk, but he writes things down to communicate (or more so tell me to “fuck off” or “leave” really) he effectively hates me for not letting him die, that’s my thanks I guess, and has no shame telling me how much he hates me. Still I visit him 5 times a week in rehab because he’s still the man I love, no matter the written abuse.
Am I evil for forcing him to stay alive? If I were to let him leave the hospital he would kill himself the second he got out. I know he’s suffering, he’s in pain, he hates his life and everybody in it. But things will get better for him, they have to, he survived for a reason.
Let him go | 27 | |
Keep him in the hospital and stay with him | 25 | |
Keep him in the hospital but leave | 16 | |
Take him home but stay with him | 4 |