How do i stop fixating on all of this?
I’m sorry in advance if this is a long post, because this has been going on for a long time, but I’ll try to summarize it. For the past few years I’ve had issues related to driving. I’m almost 20 years old and have never driven a car before. I was traumatized by some horrific stories I heard. There were points where I was scared to even go outside.
But it goes beyond that. One thing I was told often was that there were a lot of objects that could hurt me, not just cars. I’ve realized that pretty much anything can be used for evil purposes if someone was clever enough. I have to wonder what the people who build these things feel when they hear about injuries and/or deaths caused by what they made. I would really hate to be the person who invented cars, despite whatever positive impact they have had, the fact of the matter is is that they have had negative impacts as well.
I like to think of myself as a creative person, which can clash if you’re as worrisome as me. I want to write books and things, and sometimes I worry that I may somehow have a negative affect on people. For all my talk about disliking cars, I do want to travel more, but unfortunately all means of doing so have potential for killing me! The main thing is: I worry too much about what could happen, and I worry even more if I could cause it. I just want to live a good enough life without it, or anyone else’s, being cut short.