Getting out of bed early gives me severe agony
I am a nightowl and mostly because I hate going to bed since I never fall asleep, at earliest I can fall asleep at 2 AM and in all my life it has been a horror having to get up in the morning. When I have no engagements I sleep until lunch time. I dont even eat lunch I get up at lunch and have coffee, then later I have some sandwiches so my only meal is dinner unless im working. I struggle even getting out of bed that late but I do!.. I cant remember a single day in my life that I woke up feeling rested so obviously something is seriously wrong with me since ive never felt rested my whole life. I can even vividly remember my first day of pre-school and crying hysterically out of agony having to wake up early. It was an actual horror-level experience for me that I never got used to.
I am not working right now but lately ive started getting up at 7 AM anyway because they are doing construction work on the building for a couple months forward and they are the very loudest in the morning, of course... I am highly noise sensitive too. I have a phobia of loud noise and it sends me into panic attacks if I cant escape it so its a whole thing. In times like these it is debiliating and ive had ocular migraines as a result this week which is something I luckily get rarely but it is for me triggered mainly by intense stress. My eyes were flashing like crazy last night... Anyway all that forces me to get up early so I can get ready and quickly head outside for a few hours so its an extremely hard time for me now mentally. I am close to getting this job right now so i'll soon have somewhere to be anyway and likely have to keep getting up really early which is great but i'll just never get used to it. I dont believe feeling rested is a thing but people claim they do after a nights sleep or a nap so something is just wrong with me then