Drinking triggered depression

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So I have three moods when drunk. Either I am a sadistic person who will do stuff like trip someone down the stairs for a laugh. I am freindly and will hug anyone near by. That or I become severly depressed and start talking about my parents disowning me. Recently I accidently triggered where I relieved where my dad tried commiting suicide. Now I am stuck questioning it and need to find someone to talk to. My dad told me I needed to kill him but I escaped out the window of my room. I feel like it waz my duty as his child to honor his wishes and take his life. They say to honor your mother and your father but my paremts always ask me do really fucked up stuff. This is a memory from age 18 and that was over 10 years ago.

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  • harkosv
    2 years ago

    To answer the most superficial aspect of the question, it's completely normal for drinking to trigger depression. But that's not really what you're asking

    If I had to take a guess, it sounds like mental illness may run in your family or you and/or your dad may have experienced something that caused you to turn to drinking as a coping mechanism, which exacerbates the problem, which isn't normal. It isn't bad or wrong, but it wouldn't necessarily qualify as normal

    Ultimately, whether he sees it or not, you did your dad and yourself an enormous kindness by not acting on what he felt at the time were his true desires. That must have taken a lot of strength to leave the situation feeling that this was something you owed him

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