Could I be bisexual?
So if I were truly free to do whatever I want, I would've simply identified as gay, but unfortunately, life doesn't work that way. My family and my community have a moral and religious background that forbids homosexuality. Furthermore, I want to be a devout man, and I'd like to have as "normal" a life as possible. I love my family, my culture, and my religion, and I feel that my sexuality is jeopardizing my status in all of the above.
Now, I am sexually attracted to other men, and I could imagine being in a romantic relationship with a guy too (under different circumstances, that is). With women... I feel ambivalent to the prospect of anything beyond a platonic love relationship/friendship.
Just to be exact, I AM NOT HOMOPHOBIC. I publicly call for LGBT rights (among others) in my community, despite the fact that I'm concealing my identity from everyone. I'm struggling with an internal moral conflict, whereby it seems that there will come an ultimatum when I will have to choose between a partner whom I feel truly attracted to, and a family.