Can i please get advice‽
Overall is it normal to feel unmotivated in a difficult situation?
Brace yourself for a long story...
I really want to get my shit together. But it's hard when my environment sucks.
I stay with a friend and their house is chaotic and messy. I feel bad for staying in the room most of the time , because for the most part when they wake up they go straight to the living room, open the blinds, etc.. start their day. Me on the other hand I stay in the room (I have my air mattress in their room.. we share a room) and I dont want come out sometimes because I can't deal with the clutter/mess.
I feel bad for just saying that when my best friend is GIVING me a place to stay, tech for free but I do clean, cook, and give money. But when I do clean I do it late at night and then when I get up the next day there's hella dishes and the living room is a mess again or bathroom so that part frustrates me. I always say to myself I'm not cleaning up no more.. but I can't help but to clean up. I can't chill in an environment that's chaotic but I can't afford my own place either. Even the dirtiest motels are expensive where I'm at so I'm just STUCK.
I legit talk to myself and try to give myself pep talks to be positive and thankful but sometimes it's hard...
I just need advice or just assurance that things will work out.
Ik it's all on my to get out, but it's hard. I dunno, I legit feel bad for constantly thinking negative, and then just being stuck in this spot I don't have the motivation to do better... I don't know if that makes sense.
Ik for a fact if I already had my own place I'd be doing great things and positive progress, but being here I just wanna be in my bed and don't even feel motivated to do better. Which ik for some ppl that's enough motivation to do better but for me it just makes me want to just stay in my lil spot/bed and be alone..