Are there other "Meth-heads" who are happy(ish) and contribute socially?

I have been a Meth smoker for just over 14 years now. I got sent to rehab by my work in 2012 and have been trying ever since to rid my existence of the monkey riding my ass. I tried to quit because of so many external factors, stigmas, social expectations and supposed (projected) health issues.
Strangely enough, until I really started focussing on stopping, the damages to everything that was my life were miniscule; compared to the destruction thereto since.
My struggle took me to "the rooms" at NA, (later AA also) and 2 more stints in rehab, all to no avail. I had friggin lost everything fighting it, strange thing is that when I gave up trying so hard, things started falling into place. I have learnt (the hard way) to make sure that I eat, sleep and dose regularly. I have an engineering degree and am a seasoned veteran in my field of work (not directly related to engineering) and am able to outperform my peers by a large margin. I have found working from home to be key here, as people don't like what they don't understand and (generally speaking) consultants don’t act kindly to competition as things are; in my experience standing out like a sore thumb (for instance) in a corporate environment, did not do my attendance record any favours. As I had to be largely sober when going in to the office, I could not harness the up side of the drug; which helps me focus and brings out mathematical creativity unlike me (historically speaking).
I am in my 40’s, have most of my teeth still earn money in the top 0.15 percentile of folks (according to some calculator I found somewhere) and am 100% healthy. I don’t steal, kill or bite fellow humans and try and make a positive difference in the world around me.
The status quo, stands in contrast to everything I have come to know about the prognosis commonly accepted to be the result of such practices. I was wondering, am I all alone on this? (Apart from the ever present breathing sounds coming from the monkey firmly lodged to my upper torso)

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  • Were you high when you wrote this?

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  • Drugs helping creativity has been accepted for musicians and painters for years; it's about time the same was recognised for engineers!

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  • Oh and if you ever need to talk man I'm happy to. When I went through that (rehabilitation) I had so many people who had learnt about the drug from a textbook and not experienced addiction firsthand and all I wanted was someone who had made it out to talk to and I couldn't find it cos there's not a lot of go clean happy endings with that drug. But happy to help if I can

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  • I'd say you're a high functioning addict I knew a guy like this when I was addicted to meth. He still held down a good job and had a routine of eating and sleeping at periodic times. He held it together a long time man and it was quite amazing to see but in the end his mind just caved, he made no sense when he talked, everything he said was interrupted halfway by his next thought so his dialogue came out like psycho-babble. it broke him in the end

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    • Point well taken

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  • You say you have most of your teeth. How many teeth have you lost? In what sort of condition are your remaining teeth?

    Have you ever had a bone density test? How are your bones and joints? Do you have any scabs?

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    • I am still able to do the splits (with a bit of warming up) and raced a waiter for his tip not too long ago.

      No scabs, have lost 4 teeth (due to stupidity - not meth related) and 2 as reward for not going to the dentist in time.

      My eyes are going, but i guess that is also due to hitting 40.

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  • A common belief is that drug users/addicts are all losers and don't participate in society when reality is that most drug users are alright and do just fine. You just notice the bad ones, the ones that don't stand out....um, don't stand out. Yet they exist. They get no credit.

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