Am i ok? is there something wrong with me?
So my mom won't take me to the hospital cause of money issues but I think there's something wrong with me. For the past 3 nights, everytime I stand up my knees start to give out and I have to sit down. My eyesight is getting worse too. I'm at high risk for glaucoma and my eyes feel like they're being squeezed. I keep getting light headaches cause of it. Especially without my glasses on. Every joint in my body feels like it's being squeezed. Everything aches. I also have the tiniest bit of a stuffy nose. I keep drooling. I keep forgetting things.
I don't have like any of the standard I have a cold feelings though.
If this helps any, I've been having multiple really bad depressive episodes basically everyday (It's literally unending. I even tried to commit suicide. Every time I get a small moment to breathe I'm thrown back into it and it honestly sucks) and since I had a mental breakdown cause I couldn't handle it anymore -and tried to hide it- my friends made it all about them and left me. I've been super stressed out lately. Work is piling up and my brain + body is making it worse for me.