Adhd, hsp suspected autism(awaiting evaluatioin). managing

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After many years of trying I´ve finally gotten appointments at a psyhiatrist instead of just having to deal with countless offerings of medication.

Being A highly sensitive person with social issues and ADHD on top of that my emotions are all over the Place, I feel Everything.
The change in someone´s voice, the lack of response, the wrong response that indicates something is wrong.
I take the blame for Everything, if someone´s short with me I instantly assume there´s something wrong with me and how I´ve been with them.

Some Days are worse than others, it´s like a chain reaction of events.

Being this sensitive, I´ve Always had the belief that there´s something wrong with me, not the person or persons who unintentionally hurts me.

My psyhiatrist wants me to feel like no emotion is wrong and that I´ve got the right to my feelings.

I attract broken people, my boyfriend struggles with addiction, the people closest to me have different issues. My family is weird with a controlling mother and a father that´s way too nice to her.

I´ve always been against medication and refused to even try. Only tried one pill some years ago that I got from a friend to my boyfriend.

Maybe medication is the answer to dealing with my rampaging emotions but I don´t want it to be.

I´m just tired of being sad and angry over the smallest of things.
Or thinking back about something that happened days, weeks or months ago and suddenly feeling mistreated about it.

But at the same time I also get frequent spikes of happiness and get "high" on life. I´d say it´s 60-70% happiness depending on day and period in life.

I have been thinking about cutting sugar and white flour out of my diet and quit my birth controls before I add any more shit to my body but making such a change in my lifestyle is difficult.

This was long and messy.

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  • animallover5
    5 years ago

    I've never read anything in my life that I identify to more. In my experience from what you described you are having mood swings. And its not just like here or there. To me that is an indication that you may have Bipolar Disorder, which I myself have. You may have OCD also, which I myself also have. And for thought that are recurrent like you alway thinking there"s something wrong with you could be part of OCD because you are obsessing over it. which I do the same thing. So once you get your results back and you don't really think your psychiatrist is . Hmm how do I say this? Is not doing their full ability and missing something\diagnosing wrong, you should get a second opinion from a different psychiatrist to see what they think. It won't hurt. Then you can combine both opinions together and figure things out. I hope things get better for you.

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