You know by now that through trial and error people stand up for their stupid beliefs, I say you should take it even further making things happen for what you believe in. If I'm thinking the reality is good and whatnot, I'm mistaken, you believe and will cling to it because you're afraid that reality's any other way, well it's not a dream, it's not the niceness you force me to accept, my behavior's real and is exactly what you haven't expected me to be. I see normalcy as just being usual and nothing else, by normal I mean the ordinary, average human endeavours defined as what I ordinarily see, use, do, observe, find, happen, discover, think etc. It goes no further than the real reality that evil is a real thing, it's the devil. That's when reality hit me, it should be the case that it's lights out, and I should never give in to the fantasy it's not, I take on the truth that it's ugly, that people are as mean as can be, and that they're only nice over giving or begging me for cigarettes, alcohol or money.
The truth is I shouldn't be smoking bongs with people, the truth is it's not what it seems, it's like that movie "Total Recall", that's because it's real life, that movie's not fiction, it's R-rated precisely like the movie, and just as weird. The truth is we're living in a strange, scary reality, you think it's not strange, not weird? It's very strange, it's as brutal as those very macabre movies, and anyone who thinks it's me full of shit is afraid of what an ass I can be when I get to your face!